Today i had noticed two women walking holding hands
and i was wondering whether they were just friends
i walked near and saw they were both of similar age,
and i thought to myself how lucky they were
to be in what appeared so simple and yet so complicated
to have a friend of the same gender, a girl friend
someone who could relate to your issues,
knew the female issues from inside out,
but i knew right then that i was really seeking
just to have a friend,
to hold hands,
to exchange words,
but it seems too much
to have a female friend
that is JUST a friend
and nothing less..
There is something about holding hands
that makes it more difficult to be just friends
and being friends is just what
makes their loss
a cause for crying ..
I do not know what it feels like to feel drawn to your own gender, i must admit, but i do know what it feels like to feel as though you had a friend, for a long long time only to have discovered it was all false, and that person does not think of you the way you think of them, not as a long trip towards the end of life but as a station on the way towards something else , to be insignificant to someone who had been significant to you is something i can relate to and it seems to me that friendship is under valued in our society and other relations are over valued, there is nothing that makes a person feel like crying more than discovering that the person you thought was a friend, was only an illusionary figment of your imagination , not someone you could rely upon to be there for you nor someone who misses you and values you as a unique being.
This is why we have dogs and cats, they never abandone us the way people know and can and do.